self-disclose?... hmmm.. think twice?

To self-disclose with your listeners is pretty easy. But what if your listeners cannot be trusted?.. tough question isn't? you may tell the whole world about your whole life, what you're going through, who your just fall in love, who broke your heart, and etc. But who is it that really care about your situation and who will actually help you solve it and who will actually stand by your side when you cannot stand by your own?... thank god i have a friend, no wait, my best friend who is always there for me whenever, whatever and no matter what...

i have been friends with her since form three. When i am in love, having family problems, friend problem and anything in the world that i wish to share it with her, she will be first on my list. By the way let's just called her yp shall we?

obviously we met each other at our secondary school. she transferred to my school when we were form two. it's undeniable that you can't pay attention to her because she very pretty (i am not lesbian), she's extremely fair (you don't get to see extremely fair people in your life often do you?). well, she was kind of quiet in class, obedient, and shy (what do you expect, she's new!). i wasn't close to her when i was in form two. our friendship started only when we were both in form three when both of us are librarians.

Yp was having her duty with the same day that i had mine. a person like me who has interpersonal skills don't just wait for friends to fall out from the sky and make friends just like that. i make friends by using my effort to talk to people, making them feel comfortable in my presence and etc. so i talk to her and i didn't know that we can get along so well that we started talking about things from a to z,(unbelievable right?), hang out with her during our recess time, study together after school, gossip together, you name it we have done it (of course not negative things).

telling her my problems make me realize that i am not the only one who is facing troubles and that god is so unfair to me. it seems that her problems are more in a dilemma compared to mine. problems that her family are not there to support her whenever she needed them to do so, to be happy when she gets good grades for her exams, and she has to support her own expenses. working at pavilion when she had school holidays just to pay for her tuition fees and giving it to her hopeless parents that do not earn money for her education.

as her friend. i lend some of my expenses to her as well. i don't know how to help her. but i will try my best in every way to help her as she will try in every way to help me. she's my friend that i trust the most, depend on the most, enjoy the most with, and she make me realize how lucky i am to be her friend (well she will definately say the same the thing about me).

so for me, having a self-disclosure with a listener must always be someone you are close with, someone you can trust, someone who you can depend on and someone who is there with you whenever, wherever, and no matter what. so cheers!!!!!

yours truly,

carmen chan